VIP Passes Never Sounded So Sweet

I've never been good at waiting in line.
Never for something I've wanted so badly.
Occasionally, I'd let someone skip me,
The courteous kind, but not with you.

You were different, you were something
That even if I stepped out to get popcorn,
I had a feeling that the wait would be
More than worth what I had paid for.

I guess that's the reason for all this.
I've created a mess of my own fault.
My selfishness once again the cause to
Argue, to forget, to live without this.

I didn't think you'd ever get to the
Point in my thoughts so vitally thought
Of that you'd seep into my fingers.
You're all that's on my mind for now.

It's the pattern of weather that nears
Every time a hurricane forms offshore,
The tropics just giving me an excuse
To build up my heart for the heavy winds.

I want to hesitate, but I don't want
To wait for you to come around anymore.
It's caused a one-sided battle between
Two best friends. What have you done?

So I'll give you all the time you need
To answer the letter I never got to send.
I don't expect a response anytime soon.
But don't keep me at my mailbox forever.

And Then There Was You

Closely-knit from the seam to create a stitch
too tight to break, too close for comfort.
You are the best friend I'd never have again.
Our odds from the start were slim to none.

The pick me up on those Wednesday nights,
Where my first instinct was to rather hide
Than face the hell ahead of me come tomorrow,
You painted a permanent smile that would last.

Just like the old story of the good girls who
Became the "in crowd" and suddenly, cool was
A matter of name-calling and rumor-spreading,
Why have you become another one of them?

This is not the person who could obsess over
His idol for hours and never think of another
Or sing songs that he wished he could write
Even though I knew he could do it himself.

This is not the same person who told me that
One day, no matter what, he would be the one
On stage, singing and doing what he loves,
But now he doubts what he has, what he wants.

You have become a different person, an identity
Unknown to my system, unwelcomed at the least.
The in crowd has corrupted someone I love.
This is not the first case I've seen, however.

I'll give you time to reflect on this new
Choice you've made, this changed person who
I used to adore absolutely, because I know
You know better than what you're up to now.

You're changing, I know, and I can't keep you.
But I want to hold on to what I can just to
Remember that at one point, there was you,
And there was no problem with that.

Mercy

We'll spit into our sweaty palms and shake hands,
Money on the table for whoever wins this time.
Flip the coin, it lands on your call, heads.
I'll sit back and grin with too much confidence.

You grab my arm and twist, the hair on my neck is
Raised by the pain this game of Mercy lends me.
A sudden flashback of everything you've ever done
Spins through my head, and I cry Mercy yet again.

You let go, that smirk is on your face once more.
Take your winnings, my summer's savings, look away.
I've lost for what seems like the billionth time.
I've learned to stop fighting for what I can't have.